Exams are over! Done with! Finished!
However, I have to say I'm quite anxious to know the results this time.
On the one hand I can't wait to know and want to know them now, on the other hand ... rather not.
It's rather weird actually, but I hope all this stress will be for no reason in the end.
As you may have noticed I also haven't been posting a lot of art lately.
The reason for that is going to sound silly, but every time I start a drawing I just feel too blergh
" about it to finish it. My drawings don't come out looking like I intend them to look and it's frustrated me to the point of having an art block. There's also a pretty personal vent-art piece that I'm trying to get out of my system, but every time I start on it, the anatomy just comes out looking horrid and I get frustrated and I give up. Which is pretty annoying since I need
to get that piece and the accompanying feeling out of my system, but I feel artistically incapable to get it out in a way that I think looks great. Which is absolutely not the point of vent-art, as it should show emotion foremost, instead of being pretty to look at.
If I get it out of my system, chances are it will either:
- be horrid to look at with a disastrous anatomy
- be with a somewhat decent anatomy, but no emotion at all (like almost all of my pieces)
Which is another thing that frustrates me: I want my pieces to carry emotion but I have zero idea
on how to do that. I just feel like I'm back to square one with my art, starting from scratch. But at least it can only get better from here!